Pain and boredom

Been noticing pain in my upper right forehead area a lot randomly. Sometimes it's sudden and will go away just as suddenly and sometimes it stays there with my headaches/migraines.

Also, tingling/pins and needles are not as bad anymore, just random.
Black spots/floaters are still active.
My back pain seems to be coming alive again now that my muscle relaxants are off the menu.

I've gotten a bit of my appetite back but I think that's more just of boredom than anything. Still not motivated to do much. Not really 'depressed' but just.... meh. I just can't seem to care to do anything. Very apathetic, even with things I normally would love to do. Which is a symptom of depression. I'm getting all the symptoms of depression except the actually being sad and depressed and wanting to kill myself kind of part. Which is a good thing but at the same time I'm really bored.

I've spend most of my time laying on the futon in the basement watching movies.

mri

Got a letter from my doctor today telling me that my mri results came back normal other than some sinus congestion. So no crazy brain tumors or anything of that sort. So now that that is checked off the list....

side effects/things

Just wanted to put down some of the side effects and symptoms I've been having recently just because I don't want to forget and I know that the headache clinic doc will want to know everything.
black spots/floaters
irregular heartbeat
numbness and tingling/pins and needles of extremeties
getting colder faster than normal
body parts falling asleep faster than normal
increasing depression
fatigue
disinterest
loss of appetite (so much to maybe only eating one meal throughout the day)
anxiety

its back

Had to abandon the muscle relaxants. They were making me have complete blackouts.
I went to a headache clinic and she formally diagnosed me with chronic migraine. She ordered a new mri scan since I haven't had one in years and a couple pages of blood work. I just finished all that bullshit a couple days ago and should be getting the results sometime this week. Some part of me is wishing that they find something because then it's something tangible and I can get set on fixing it rather than fucking around trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with my head.

I'm on topomax now which is a specific migraine medication. She also upped my imitrex (abortive migraine meds) because she said the dose I was on before was a pediatric dose and gave me a couple samples of different abortive migraine meds. So far the abortive migraine meds have worked well but I am useless after I take them because they make me so drowsy. I've been on the topomax for a little over a week now and I've gone up to 50mg. I have the start of a migraine today but I have shit to do so no abortive meds. Doc said not to go above 75mg of the topomax because then it will start to affect my birth control. I'm hoping a week on the 50mg will help and do something.

I've kind of lost motivation to continue exercising. I lost my job, no one seems to be having any faith or hope in me or my future, and everyone else in my life seems to be falling apart medically as well (strokes, heart attacks, cancers, brain aneurysms, serious surguries, etc etc). There's a lot of falling apart going on other than medically as well.

Oh depression. I did not miss you.